Hmmmmm...Seriously FML!

I keep asking myself question..Why am I soooo...soft hearted??Why can't I be like some guys who just plays with girls feelings and not get remorseful.Why can't I become somewhat like a playboy?And why the fuck do I keep trying to prove to you(you know who you are) that I can gain back your love?Am I stupid?Or maybe an idiot?Or maybe I'm just totally retarded?Someone pls tell me what am I suppose to do now?