This is STILL THE START!!!

Its been 2 weeks and we still have not really killed each other!!:)Though both of our O's are coming we are still quite strong together...I really want this to last I won't be so dumb like last time and let things go!!It pains me to see you sad or hurt...I just don't like to show people my weakness so I always put up a strong front..I diss you and make fun of you without any restrictions.And lastly I can and always say to you I love you without any hesitations.Thats why baby we are together!!!:D

The passing

I guess that the storm has pass and a new life is begging for me..I'm now dating Brigette juliet..I guess people can move on in life... I'm happy with who I'm with now and maybe just maybe we'll see each other in future..But now I'll give a 110% to the person I'm with!!!

S.P.A

Went out with mad ng yesterday and watched toy story 3!!Its quite funny but end around 11.53!All mad's fault!Today I kinda took my time to get ready for school cause today doing science pratical at St Francis meth school..Their school is super big lah!WOOHOOO!But their school uniform not nice..Oh wells nothing much happened after that..I better go study now..See yah!

YOUTHDAY!!!

Today's youthday!!!:):)
Slept at 3am or 4am the day before but somehow still manage to wake up at around 8+ in the morning,maybe due to sleeping on the floor(Sometimes I do that so that I can wake up the next day)Suppose to meet joey at 12.30 at vivo but me taking my time made me reach vivo at around 1.40.Joey that airhead made me walk around vivo looking for the bloody starbucks he was in(vivo has 2 starbucks.1 on the 1st story the other on the 2nd)Sat down ordered my fav and then as usual started fighting over stupid reasons!After that went to get tickets for the movie in which abby joined us for!We watched LETTERS TO JULIET.Super romantic and is a MUST WATCH!!!Ok time for me to go do my own stuff!!SHIT~!Today have to sleep on the floor again..zzz...

I'm Sorry..

Remember that night when I told you that I was marble,that I wasn't able to feel?

You weredesperately calling after menot to walk so fast and leave you behind in the dark forest.You were pleading with me not to give up on something that was real to you,something that could have been more magical than I thought it was.I didn't have enough faith to trust,yet you were urging me against those fears.You were right there in frontof me,and perhaps for once in my life you could have been the realest thing I ever encountered in my life.Perhaps you embodied something real and solid somewhere in you,something I could hold on to.You could have been my lifebuoy.You were right there why couldn't I see the light under your skin back then?Why did you only seem like a pillar of fear to me?Why,under the stars and beneath the trees,did you seem so transient,so momentary?I thought you were going to vaporize into mist and leave me there.I didn't want to be the one left behind first,I wouldn't for stand it.So I was selfish and ran away.You were trailing behind me,calling after me but I refused to slow down.I ran till your face became a blur,till your being became a speck in the distance,till I couldn't see the frantic waving of your arms anymore.till you were gone.

After seasons had passed,I began to worry about how you were doing in that forest.I wondered if you became a pixie or one of those goblins.But whatever you became,it was my fault for leaving you behind.It must've been terrifying,being there alone in the cold.As night turned to days and days turned to night.How many nights did you spend there,watching leaves detach themselves from their trees,watching fairies shed tears over wilting flowers that they were unable to save?You must have seen enough to tell me a story.

One night,I crept out of bed and snuck out of my house.I went back to the same forest where I last left you.I began calling out your name but I couldn't hear your voice.Maybe you were calling back to me in the wind but it wasn't loud enough.Or maybe you were angry with me and you were cautiously watching me from behind a silver oak tree,but you refused to make a sound because you decided that I should die with guilt in my heart(I killed yours with cruelty)

If I stayed in the forest for as long as you did,waiting for you,would you appear before me again?If I stayed behind with you back then,I know that all those cold haunted nights you spent alone would have been magical and enchanting instead.

After all,we ran in the forest together,but I ran out first.I'm sorry.

Hmmmmm...Seriously FML!

I keep asking myself question..Why am I soooo...soft hearted??Why can't I be like some guys who just plays with girls feelings and not get remorseful.Why can't I become somewhat like a playboy?And why the fuck do I keep trying to prove to you(you know who you are) that I can gain back your love?Am I stupid?Or maybe an idiot?Or maybe I'm just totally retarded?Someone pls tell me what am I suppose to do now?

This is just great...

Finally after long hours in front of the com..I FOUND IT!!I found what I've been looking for all this time..Today is really going to be a good day!!

Most likely my last post...

Oh well this is most likely my last post until something actually happens in my life..Now at the moment I'm still sad over steph and guess what its been 3 YEARS ALREADY..I've been trying to look for her blog just to keep myself updated but...since my B'day date until now I still can't find it...Man..I'm so fucked up...If there was one thing I could change in my life..It wouldn't be my grades or the friends I mix with..I would go back to the time I broke up with her and change things..Now all I can do is live in sorrow and ask..
STEPHANIE WEE PEI EN CAN YOU PLEASE GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE???